“If you feel insane in an insane world, it means you are sane.” – Rudolf Steiner

I don’t usually watch an AI created video like this one. They tend to give me the willies. But something (perhaps the artwork) compelled me listen this morning – and it’s message, while not new, is succinct here. I’m in the wrong world. I have felt this way since I can remember, certainly since early childhood. I’m guessing that if you are reading this blog you do, too.

The good news is that my soul has never fallen back to sleep (not for lack of trying.) The bad news is that my soul has never fallen back to sleep. Just kidding; I’ll always choose my soul and all the pain and heartache I feel over complacency and robot-itis. I’m a rebel no longer in disguise.

Turns out Steiner gave this phenomena a name: anthroposophy. The Oxford dictionary describes this as “a therapeutic, creative system…seeking to use mainly natural means to optimize physical and mental health and well-being.” I call it self acceptance.

Yes, my world view is idealistic. Deal with it. And this is the thing: I think it comes with age, and perhaps also emotional maturity (which has nothing to do with age.) Or as I’ve been telling my gaslighting family for decades: I choose my crazy.