sometimes, quite literally. Why are we so afraid to express ourselves? I’ve always been a maximalist. Really, from the time I was a little kid. I was in grade school or junior high when my best friend nicknamed me “the perpetual arranger.” Keep rearranging it until it relaxes you and tickles your fancy.
I have also never had any budget for decoration. I’ve been the thrift queen since high school, shopping at St. Vincent de Paul, garage sales, and the Goodwill for clothes and jewelry and lamps and rugs and cute little chairs. And when I am not wearing the green velvet jacket I don’t hang it in the closet. What a waste that would be. I drape it over the shoulders of a chair. I hang necklaces on a lamp, I pin found feathers and postcards from friends to the lampshade. I’ll drop today’s beach stone finds in the bathroom sink. A friend once asked me how I clean the sink with the stones in the way…and don’t they get toothpaste on them? I responded “they love it.” Who told you the rules?
Hutton Wilkinson says the worst thing a house can be is boring. I couldn’t agree more. Design mentor Alexandra Stoddard calls taupe boring, “…the insidious, evil, creeping taupe.” Taupe. Who needs it? Just say no. Let your house express you. Don’t you want to walk out to your kitchen in the morning and be delighted? Come home from your yearly physical and feel renewed? Let your soul play and sing here – here – where it is for you. One of my life goals is to become increasingly brave and eccentric – and embellish everything. Stand right there a minute…
It’s the weekend; let’s lighten up. Here are two of my very most favorite designers, Alexandra Tolstoy and Butter Wakefield. They each have a unique style and a lot in common to my eye. They have an unapologetic love of color. And they insist on comfort. Those are my two priorities…oh, and how happy their homes are. Happy, exuberant, whimsical and personal style. Dare we say dopamine style? Our homes should delight us first thing in the morning, last thing at night, and especially after an outing, long or short. If you don’t walk in your front door and feel your shoulders lower, let’s talk.
Now both of these women are decidedly maximalists. As am I. Full disclosure, I cannot understand anything else. Everyone I share my enthusiasm with often responds with something similar to “well there’s…just…so…much…stuff.” Well, yeah. Hence the genre called maximalism. I call it a good start. But truthfully, it absolutely tickles my fancy.
I dream in maximalism. I actually dream of walking around inside strangers houses and taking note of the paintings on the wall and the patterns on the fabrics. It’s my idea of a good time. But don’t be fooled – it’s not an easy style to pull off. I work at it and never seem to get the relaxed result these two women have achieved. I have a theory about that, but I’ll save that for another day. I will tell you this: I have watched countless hours of maximalist house tours and not a one of those homeowners is glum. They seem genuinely chuffed.
Any chance you might have an issue with authority? If so, I’m just sure we can be friends. To say I am resistant to suggestion would be an understatement, and yet I am constantly seeking advise, input, more input, ideas, opinions and help from any number of sources.
My dearest friends will attest that I directly – and regularly – say to them, “Tell me what to do.” They think I’m funny. They have known me long enough to know that telling me what to do is futile. Even when I ask, there’s maybe a 30% chance of follow through. Maybe.
Now let us not confuse my fierce independence with any remote understanding of healthy boundaries. Those close to me have also seen me make absolutely stupid decisions just for the sake of being contrary. What can I say? Growing up is hard to do…
Just this week I had a bit of a tete-a-tete with my past. My ex called and wanted to talk. This would generally send me into a tailspin of anxiety. What was he up to?
We met a few days later for breakfast. It was quite pleasant. He is 17 years older than me and has had some serious health challenges. So, he is face to face with his own mortality. That is humbling. But it was just a few hours later that he called again. Strange. This time he barked at me to pull up a website on my computer. He wanted me to look at a car for sale. He had asked about my Jeep at breakfast. The previous time we met for a “catch up” the Jeep had limped into the restaurant parking lot squealing and lurching. It’s the old car I had from our marriage, now 13 years dissolved. It’s on it’s last leg before the scrap heap and I’ve been trying to figure out how I will afford to replace it.
When he asked about it I had quipped, “It’s running well. It’s about time to think about looking for a car.” Ever-so nonchalant. Pardon me, but I’ve had more than 30 years with him to learn to generalize my answers. I give out very little information. It’s not so much a conversation as an interrogation, or a relationship as a transaction. He is never without an agenda.
Sure enough, several hours later and he’s found me a car. Mind you, we had not discussed anything about my looking for a car. No details were asked for or volunteered, no direct inquiries, no interest feigned. This was entirely based on his assumptions. He found me a car. Another Jeep (I had not been considering buying another Jeep. For one thing, I can barely climb in and out of this one anymore.)
This is how that second phone call went: “Hi. What’s up?” I was taken by surprise. “Get to your computer! Look at this website!” I had no idea what this was about until my laptop had booted up and I asked for the website name. It was a car dealership. “Look at this Jeep! If you’re interested I could go drive that for you tomorrow.” As if I don’t drive…or he has any mechanical prowess. But I do forget sometimes how utterly incompetent I am. He sounded like he was on speed (what is in those Manhattans?) He desperately needs a project, and he needs it to be me.
Wait. What? S L O W the heck down…why are you directing me to look at a car? Well…he could “help me” buy that. Sadly, I’ve also got 30+ years experience knowing that this is going to be a long, convoluted process that will somehow end up costing me sleep, peace of mind, money, and self respect. I graciously declined. I have learned a little over the decades. For better or worse, I have learned to be my own hero.
I thanked him for his concern and generosity. I don’t want to generate any animosity. I’m careful not to invite the repercussions of his wrath. I am struggling with my health also, but unlike my ex, I am also struggling financially. There was no room for partnership in that marriage, nor fairness in the divorce. I receive spousal support (the new word for alimony) which is a small fraction of his income and 90% of mine. Less than law would allow, but as much as I was willing to fight for. I wanted out intact. Okay, that’s not true – I wanted out alive. It was too late for intact.
My former husband is not a bad man. He is charming, highly intelligent and extremely like-able. There are many wonderful things about him, and I wish I knew how to have him in my life. He is what is known as a vulnerable narcissist. He would do anything to help. It’s just gonna have a few little almost invisible strings attached…kinda like walking into a spiderweb. Sticky.
Now with the hard-earned wisdom of distance, all of this simply makes me enormously sad. We are both alone in our old age. But I know my true value. Not only will he never know mine; he will never know his own. We are all so very fragile. As Maira is inclined to notice, we are all striving, and we are all heroic.
When I was house hunting several years ago I had become quite discouraged. The first house I made an offer on I was over-the-moon smitten with. It really was my dream house. I didn’t get it. I offered $5K over asking price within 24 hours of it being listed. I was the second offer, and not the highest. But I was devastated. It still feels like a loss. Some days when I’m on an errand nearby I cannot resist the urge to drive past. Add house stalker to the list of my guilty pleasures.
Once I had a purchase agreement on the home I actually bought, moving toward closing, the process stalled twice. The seller was not complying with terms of my lender, or not fixing the things the inspection tagged. Again I became discouraged, so twice I threatened to call off the deal. It did motivate the seller. Each time when I became frustrated I did what I always do – asked for guidance in meditation. Both times I clearly heard: “you are being placed.” Because I was grieving the loss of the first house, I frustratingly replied to God, “whatever…”
The first neighbors I had next door were psycho neighbors from hell. I have never dealt with anyone like them in my life. They were threatening me and I was afraid in my own home. I suspect drugs were involved, but come to find out they had caused trouble with the other neighbors for years. I learned that the man I bought the house from had sued them apparently. Their dog had attacked his fiance’. The first summer I was here their cat attacked me – as in ran across the yard and flew 5 feet through the air at my face. The arm I used to block the attack required stitches and I was given a course of antibiotics.
A year or so later I received a letter from the township informing me that they had applied for a zoning variance. They wanted to open a day care facility, and a public hearing would be held at the next township meeting to decide that. There were already 4 adults, 2 teenagers and a few children living there in the small house. They regularly parked on my lawn. There was constant traffic around the clock, along with regular all night parties. Their dogs, cats, and chickens ran all over my property, including inside my gated back fence. And they often left my gates open as my yard was a shortcut for them to the side street – where 15 or 20 of their party guests would park once my lawn was full. They walked by my bedroom window all night with flash lights yelling to one another.
My daily life was untenable this way, and I concluded that I would have to move. But now my other neighbors came knocking on my door imploring me to action; they had received the same letter from the township and were in a panic. Further away and not in site, they had no idea what I was dealing with. They had endured their own altercations. That day in my living room we prepared letters to protest the zoning variance and attended the meeting en force. We took an attorney along (a family member of mine) to show we meant business. The application was denied, but I feared repercussions.
Early one morning before dawn I opened the front door to out my elderly beagle Odie. I was face-to-face with the neighbor woman immediately outside my front door, carrying a milk jug with brown liquid in it. Startled, I asked her what she was doing and she said, “killing these dandelions for you.” I said no, thank you, and asked her to leave my property, to which she narrowed her eyes and grumbled, “we were here first.” I don’t even know what that meant, but I didn’t ask. Don’t try to reason with insanity.
During this process I was meditating (when I wasn’t shaking and crying) asking for guidance. And I distinctly heard, “They are being re-placed.” I had no idea what the heck that meant either, but soon a For Sale sign went up in their front yard. I actually fell to my knees and burst into tears. No one should ever have to live like this.
Their house sold within 24 hours and $5K over asking price. That house, and the one behind me, have since been sold as holiday retreats to young families from Detroit and Chicago. Not only do I rarely see or hear anyone around me, but they are so very pleasant when they are here on the occasional weekend. They know I am keeping an eye. I will gladly take their weekend trash to set out, and they will often mow my “back 40” as a gesture of appreciation. They leave baked treats outside my door. I couldn’t want for better neighbors.
My house still needs work. In the 7 years I have been here I have done some, but not all, of the finishing work. Built in 1955 it is solid. It needs to be; it is usually buffeted by high winds off Lake Michigan. About a quarter mile inland, with wintertime glints of sun off the water, I look out from treetop level across valleys in three directions. Southeast I see pine-forested hilltops miles in the distance. Hawthorn Cottage is now a quiet little sanctuary, my very own thin place. So as it turns out, I have been placed.
Author and designer Ted Watson Kennedy has a summer home also named Hawthorne Cottage:
Okay. New week, new rabbit hole. Same theme: what do fashion, storytelling and rest have in common? I’m going to be a social archeologist until I grok this equation thoroughly. I’m certain there is some pearl of useful wisdom in here that I can build my empire on. Or at least get inspired to get out of the chair…
Enter Mary Portas, Habitat Voyeur. The creator of the kindness economy, Queen of Shops, considered a conscious entrepreneur, and dare I add, wizardess extraordinaire? Let’s just say, she gets it. She came from the future back to rescue us from ourselves and walk us into a new paradigm. We need a new paradigm. Sustainable. Inclusive. And nothing if not hopeful.
Very few people know that my teenage years revolved around fashion. My parents indulged my obsession by letting me go to finishing school on Saturdays during junior high. In addition to the cost involved, it meant my Mother drove downtown, about 20 miles each way from our suburban home, to drop me off and then again to pick me up eight hours later. That’s where I learned fencing, among other (mostly useless) skills. I loved it.
Around this same time it happened that my sister’s piano teacher had a daughter who produced shows at the big network affiliate in Detroit. Mrs. Hanes suggested her daughter use me as a model for The Jackie Crampton Fashion Hour, which followed the mid-day news on ABC. I guess you could say I was “discovered” in my own home. It began a bit of a teenage dream career, and before long I was making better money than I’d ever earn again the rest of my life. I worked as a model and then as a dresser and fashion assistant for Saks Fifth Avenue, and then for Belle Jacob Wigs. At the time they were one of the largest wig manufacturers in the world. I fell in love with wigs. I found I could create an entirely new persona on a daily basis. They really are an art medium all their own.
My first semester of college was in fashion illustration at The Detroit School of Arts and Crafts (now the College for Creative Studies.) But long before that I got in trouble in grade school for making anatomically correct paper dolls. It hadn’t occurred to me not to draw them correctly. Duh. By high school in the 60’s, where the girls were required to wear dresses, I was shopping at St. Vincent de Paul and other charity shops and taking the clothes apart and reconfiguring them to make outrageous outfits – but they had skirts! I was born this way, apparently. I still design clothes in my dreams. I often get up and draw them so that I won’t forget them. I have designed entire lines of shoes – none of them brown. Decades ago I designed a line of attachable pockets that you could mix and match and move from garment to garment. And a series of baggy linen tops with subtle tarot symbols embroidered on them. I’d love to wear them all.
But it was a different era. And I was learning to survive in a chaotic and sometimes violent home. A career in fashion was not to be. Mary Portas exemplifies the business woman I would like to support. Well, second only to Estella, perhaps. I do love trouble…
New to me, this concept of the thin place, where the veil between heaven and earth is thin…”this is what it must be like to be in heaven,” says Sarah Louise. So, like Michigan in the spring. Surely there is no place more wonderful on earth. Misty sunrises feel like a warm blanket. Suddenly everything is lush and green and aromatic and yummy and all the birds arrive at once.
The hawthorn tree out front is blossoming and it is magnificent. It’s old swooping branches whisper to the soft grass and curtain my bedroom window. I look out through it eastward to a valley across the road. Hawthorns are considered sacred in Celtic mythology. They are purported to be the portal between worlds, where the magical creatures like leprechaun and fae travel back and forth. I haven’t seen them, but the Cedar Waxwings fill this tree each May to gorge on it’s berries, and that’s magic enough for me.
Can thin places be as close as this? Can they also be indoors, perhaps in the form of altars? I’ve always thought of my entire home as an altar. Isn’t it all sacred as it shelters my body and my life? How could it not be? I believe our homes do, in fact, provide a thin place. Alone and with our closest loved ones, we are safe here to grieve and to dream. Be it ever so humble.
“Now I become myself. It’s taken time, many years and places…” – May Sarton
They are not actually an accessory, of course. They are precious and treasured family members. Growing up we always had dogs. And cats and fish and birds and my sister had a horse. But “my” first dog was a black cocker spaniel named Blackie (I was 5, okay?) and I loved him with all my heart. Sitting on the living room floor rolling the ball to him, he chased it under the couch. When I bent over to retrieve it he nipped at the same time and caught my eyelid. If I remember correctly I had about 8 stitches. It wasn’t long before Blackie disappeared one day, coincidently the same time as “my” cat, Kashmir. In hindsight, of course, I’m sure my parents found them other homes for reasons I was not privy to. But I was devastated.
Shortly thereafter my Mother adopted a copper-colored miniature poodle, Coco. Coco was adorable, but was entirely my Mother’s devoted companion. Now as an adult I know that Cocker Spaniels are extremely territorial and prone to nipping. And poodles are prone to epilepsy, which is how she eventually lost Coco. I was in high school by then, entirely self absorbed and often not home. I barely noticed Coco’s absence. And it would be years later, again in hindsight, that I would realize my Mother was never quite the same after losing her beloved Coco. She, too, was devastated.
Over the decades I’ve been blessed many lovely, lovely dogs and cats. I’ve loved them all, but not all the same. I’ve also loved the dogs and cats of other family members and friends. I’ve even fallen madly in love with a bird named Lovey. They’re like people in the way that you just have an inexplicable connection with some of them. They mean the world to you.
I’ve had three Pembroke Welsh Corgis who were really special to me. After losing the first, Christie (Arborglenn Pastel of Christie to you) and then Oliver, I would never be the same. By then I had also adopted Hariat from the Lakeshore Pembroke Welsh Corgi rescue. Her given name was Ariat, after a line of equestrian gear. She had been a working dog on a horse farm. She was 5 years old when I was blessed with her and I had her for 10 wonderful years. I had driven four hours south to pick her up from where she was being fostered and when we arrived back home, she and Oliver met nose to nose and were instant besties. It was so uncanny, I had to wonder if they had ancestors in common. It seemed as though they recognized each other.
I’ve had that happen with other animals, too. It’s unexpected and delightful when there isn’t any adjustment period. It’s as if they say, “Oh, Hi. I’m so glad you’re here.” It happened most recently with my little beagle, Odie, who I had adopted from the shelter, and a giant Maine Coon cat named Chewy. I agreed to foster Chewy for a couple of months – six years ago. Odie and Chewy were inseparable from day one. We’ve lost Hariat and then Odie in the past five years. I’m not getting over it. Maybe it was easier to cope with when I was younger and had a busy scramble life with lots of people in the house. Maybe I just didn’t have time to notice my pain as much. Now it’s just me and Chewy. I won’t challenge him in his old age by trying to introduce another animal. He is so dear. I’ve often said that he doesn’t know he’s a cat. He thinks like a dog and acts like a dog. Like my dogs before him, he follows me from room to room and doesn’t sleep soundly unless we are touching.
My life has been so enriched by the sweetness of every pet I’ve been privileged to keep and care for. They certainly bring out the best in us.
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Rita Konig is second generation design royalty. She mentions getting a sofa from her Mum, as any of us might get a hand-me-down from a parent; her Mum just happens to be design icon Nina Campbell. That said, she has a talent for breaking things down for we commoners into simple elements. Comfort and function first. You won’t see anything showy or ostentatious here, but you will want to plop down with a book and maybe have a little lie down…
EVER so frustrated by the ridiculous shortage in interesting viewing material on my television, (I need 10 times more, please, producers) I gave “Selling London” a try the other night. It’s a real estate show similar to Million Dollar Mansions. You should see these places. 37.5 million pounds (about 58 million dollars) and they look like hotel lobby meets prepper bunker. I wouldn’t give you a dollar for them. Who ARE these people?! And of course, this isn’t going to be a main residence – it’s a layover apartment among many they own world-wide. Lucky for me I don’t like them.
Meanwhile, back in the countryside where the real people live, don’t be fooled by the easy, relaxed atmosphere. That hand-me-down sofa cost more than your dream car. Do you like the fabric on the bedroom walls? Yeah, you’re gonna need a second mortgage for that. As it happens, I know this because of years working in the design industry. However I have the utmost respect for those who could afford the George Jetson bunker but instead choose mis-matched fabrics and heavy cotton curtains that feel like warm blankets. People who know how to act like humans and have other priorities for their wealth. I don’t have any statistics, but designers are certainly some of the most philanthropic people in the world. They’re artists, after all. It’s a business full of empaths. If they are to be successful they are good listeners.
So, okay, I love Rita Konig. First of all, she has her priorities straight: where do you put your drink and how do you see to read? I’ve long said, if anyone is going to sit there, you need a bright lamp – at a height where it shines down over your shoulder. And somewhere to set your coffee mug. That includes sitting up in bed. As an asthmatic cat owner (don’t judge) I also move through daily life with an inhaler, a pet brush, above mentioned book, reading glasses, and a box of tissues – minimally. I am not comfortable sitting anywhere that I haven’t got at least a square foot of clear table surface immediately available to plop down said accoutrements. Call me high maintenance if you must. I’m good with that.
Rita designs homes that are easy to live in, unassuming, warm and comfortable. Above all else, personal. Her taste is exquisite. And there isn’t a single thing here that you and I couldn’t reproduce on a tight budget in our own home. THAT is good design. It’s for everyone.
“Urban art in a cute little countryside cottage.” says interior designer Anna Campbell. This is another tiny space jam-packed full of detail, and entirely comfortable in it’s vernacular. It’s one of my all-time favorites. The artist homeowner, Penny, says it herself, “I just feel I belong here.”
Belonging. Such a concept, but not likely what we think of immediately. In many ways I think all I ever wanted was to belong. The majority of my adult life until quite recently has been spent trying to create a sense of belonging, albeit misguided. I can look back in glorious, hilarious, hindsight and see it clear as day! I wanted a big, welcoming family home where everyone hung out and gathered for the holidays and made themselves at home. The home of my childhood, where I never did feel I belonged. Because I didn’t. I always felt like a visitor from a foreign land. I remember asking my poor Mother several times if she was certain that I was not adopted. As if, what?!, she wouldn’t recall giving birth to me? What a silly child. My Mother would assure me that all five of her children had the same mother and father, although she was entirely perplexed by their differences. Like part of any family, we had much in common. We were nothing alike.
My favorite poem is called The House of Belonging, by David Whyte. It pretty much sums up why the concept of HOME and belonging are so important to me. Here are the last few stanzas:
“This is the bright home in which I live, this is where I ask my friends to come, this is where I want to love all the things it has taken me so long to learn to love. This is the temple of my adult aloneness and I belong to that aloneness as I belong to my life. There is no house like the house of belonging. “
…besides my head. Pardon me, I couldn’t resist. If God is in the details, Fiona de Lys is an angel incarnate. Here I am, still in wonder. Join me in my rabbit hole this morning? What do fashion, storytelling and rest have in common? Let’s visit Fiona and have a look ’round and see what we can learn about living a creative life…a deep, soul quenching life of peace.
Her home tells a story, a “narrative” as she calls it. She is telling us her personal story – about what she loves about her home, color, and her work. She can’t separate those out, nor should she. Let’s face it, our homes are at once metaphor and expression. Fiona was being restored as the space was being restored. When life’s changes (whether chosen or forced) require a move we must slow down and listen.
When she talks about the home needing to breathe she is describing a physical characteristic of many European and northern African houses. The lime finish on the walls is an organic material, a kind of chalky plaster. The climate is not friendly to gypsum, or what we call drywall. In her stairwell you see it’s natural state before any color is added. It’s a soft, mottled finish. And it does contract and expand with the temperature and humidity.
She likely added solid flooring. That is a fairly new addition there. Many old English country houses are open to the ground underneath the floorboards or bricks. Most of them do not have central heating systems. That is why you see doors on every room; they closed the heat of the fire in to stay warm. If they are listed (on the historic registry) they were built long before these amenities had been invented. Having a “cooker”, or Aga, later became the only source of heat other than open fires. Notice the desk in her dining room is almost as old as the U.S. How is it that we are not humbled by how much we have to learn and how much we take for granted? I’m convinced that if we possess any emotional intelligence at all it came from our ancestors through our genes. But I digress…
This home is full of interesting details and ideas. I’d love to hear what you noticed and liked. Fancy trying any of them?
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A Painterly Home 